THE plan.

I've got a plan.

HAHA! I know in one of my entries I had told myself to never ever plan. But I guess I gotta eat my words. Pffft!

I had made many mistakes and I shall try to avoid making any in the future. But then again, I'm only human and I HAVE to make mistakes to learn from them. Life is a learning journey. Still, its no excuse if I can avoid it. Right? HEH.

I'm 26 and I have my share of stories in life. I had fallen in love three times. The longest being seven years with this great guy ;) Or maybe the other two times were just infactuations, great ones? Maybe. Hmm.. I dont know. But I thought I was in love.

Now, I'm looking for LOVE again. I do feel lonely at times. And when I do, I go to the room next door; through the connecting toilet we share. To my sis. To talk, to quarrel, to laugh, to piss her off etc. Anything. Just anything to get her attention. I need some communications. Be it if it means quarreling. Hehe. It helps cause after that I don't really feel lonely anymore! Its weird. I'm weird. And its true.

Now, I just want to be happy and carefree. But to be care-free would means not many problems. And that would means not making mistakes. *Shrugs off*
Conclusion : I won't be carefree. But I'll make sure I'll be damn happy and pleased with life.

Being 26yrs and single, having friends getting married and having babies sometimes puts me in alot of pressure. OK ego aside (pfft!), I do often say there's no rush in getting married. But I guess I'm just consoling myself. Haha. I do envy my friends who's getting married and I do want to get married. At least before turning 29yrs? InsyaAllah. Coz if I still don't by 29yrs, I'm gonna adopt a baby. Haha.

So here's the plan:

I'm going to make myself happy by living life to the fullest. I will try to be more confident , mature and more open. Be stronger and happier than before.

And it may seems or sounds rather weird, but I'll rather be making more mistakes now before my MR RIGHT or left or whoever comes along. Cause once he appears running after that corner and into my life, I'll want to be the best for him. I'll love him wholeheartedly. And should all goes well, I'll want to be the best wife for him and the best mom to our kids. And it's because I had made mistakes and I had learnt from it.

Well, that's the plan.

Let me quote another of my favourites. ;)

"Life is a song - sing it.
 Life is a game - play it.
 Life is a challenge - meet it.
 Life is a dream - realise it.
 Life is a scarifice - offer it.
 Life is a LOVE. Enjoy it."
- Sai Baba