Hurt. Angry. Sad. Disappointed.

All mixed up.

I dont deserve any love, care and attention that I craved for from anyone. I'm not worth it. I just need you not to say those things to me. Its hurtful. I'll get over it but now, its really painful. She said all without the slightest consideration that it might hurt me deep.

I'm glad I'm on my own coz I might just fucked things up.

An exchange of arguements from the parents these two days really left me disconnected. And its the start of the year.

Am I really that bad, even when I tried hard to get things right? Fuck it. I've had enough. Noone appreciates anything. Noone really cares. I've only myself to blame for being so naive.

Thanks for backing me up. But I'll never be a favourite. And I've never planned to.

And I told myself to be strong and patience. Calm down and breathe.