Reality is sinking in slowly. Its just US these days.

I hate that 'four of us' feeling and I try not to think about it. Its comforting to have him and some friends over; hanging around playing Monopoly deals and talking about the World Cup. I guess that makes Mama happy too. Mama always like company :)

For the first time last night, I saw and heard my bro guiding Mama with Yasin. It was a touching sight. It just made me so sad when Mama started to sniffle and tried to hold back her tears. Bro just looked on and kept quiet, while I distanced myself by hanging around in my room. Where I can actually see them both on the landing outside.

Today, I woke up with tears rolling down my cheeks. I miss my Baba. I turned to find mama but she had left for work. Its back to work for Mama and I hope that keeps her busy. She's been incredibly strong and that amazes me.

Well Mama, no worries, you still have us three..

PS: Thanks for being there for me when I needed you in these trying moments my dear.. <3